I was hanging above the floor. Wide open hands and legs were bound with rubber which holds me in the air. I had a mask on my eyes. There was completely darkness.
I was wandering what the feeling will be when I don't see anything. I can't predict any of his moves, not one touch. Don't know where's going to hurt me and when. Only thing I know is that he's stirring around me, he's always near wherever. He watches my body.
I felt the whip at my backside. He didn't hit hard. There was agreement between us that he won't stop beating no matter how much I ask and beg. I want nirvana. That's why he's not allowed to listen my screaming, that will pass and I will fall into pure pleasure of orgasm.
I was swinging on the rubber. He put his hands on my belly. I heard his breathing next to me. I have to moan rashly as I got two strokes one after another at my back. I was turning my head blindfold. He wasn't standing so close to me anymore, I couldn't feel him.
Whipping become pretty often. The whip griped my exposed torso. The pinnacle of it hits my ribs and shoulders. There was no regularity when the whip will hits trunk or extremities. Skin was blazing. All body twitched by every second no matter was there preceding the batter. This way I tried to soothe my doubtfulness: will I be able to hold out one ember kiss of the whip on my body.
My pain limit was quite high. I could stand the lot. As the pain gets stronger I enjoy much more. There's no other activity than whipping that could bring more to me. The whip moves the maximum value of physical suffer and takes me beyond it - somewhere where I'll feel no pain because the pain will become bliss.
I was screaming at him o stop. Tried to release myself out of that rubber but resist made things worse for me. Wanted to collapse, tumble down on the floor but I stayed above the ground while the whip catches me even more rapidly. Felt like all skin was torn to pieces and open wounds disclose my bones. That becomes unbearable. The tears were falling down under mask. Holding my muscles tight I beg not the pain goes any deeper. I tried to withstand briskly.
With no difference I stood in front of hits.
Suddenly my body calm down. Twitches stopped and he stopped too. He remarks how quiet I became. He jumped in front of me. When he touched me I felt how scare he was. I frightened myself too, but on face now was a smile. I was completely relaxed. And I wanted for more. In full swing he hits my back few more time. All the pain has disappeared. I was floating into darkness of nirvana.